Midnight Musings

A deep slumber is disturbed by a quivering Maaaaaaa sound and you know she is dreaming. You gently touch, she quickly grabs you and takes shelter in you. You try to ask what is bothering her, she replies, 'I had a nightmare.' 

She hurriedly hugs you. You too bring her close to your bosom, trying to make her feel safe. You kiss her forehead, ruffle her hair trying to make her feel secure. You tell her that you are right there and she hugs you tightly. 

She dozes off to sleep again. 

Your sleep just jumped out of your eyes and escaped into unknown lands. You are left with the sound of the whirring fan and the intermittent zzzzz of the snoring husband. Somehow you manage to get the phone with the hand that's free (the other has turned itself into a pillow for the little one) and start typing. 

You remember your childhood when similar incidents occurred with you too and reaching out to Ma was the only solace. You smile and kiss your child once again. You feel grateful for being blessed with Ma and motherhood. 

Lekin bhaiya ab toh...

Saari raat hum 

Jaag jaag ke jee liye

Ek pal toh Hume

Neend aane do Ane do! 

Give me some sleep

Give me some relief 

Give me another chance

I wanna get some sleep 😴 

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Why is Mother's Day so special?

The conversation between my six year old and me led to this post. In her sweet, simple way little Biryani expressed the real fact of what makes this day so special for us mothers.

Ma: Achha Biryani tell me what is so special about Mother's Day?

Biryani: Because it gave her (the mother) the child. 

Ma: So what?

Biryani: Because that's what made her ( the mother) the happiest person on Earth naa! 

Indeed, holding you in my shaky arms for the first time, touching you to see if you are for real were moments beyond words or adjectives could describe. Since then life has been tough... There have been times when I lost my cool, I screamt,i cried because motherhood doesn't come with prior experience and certification; it's to be felt and gradually experienced. I have had my moments of complete break down but it was you who brought back the power and strength in me.

 I know how much I wanted to be a mother in spite of those miscarriages that tormented both my body and soul. You didn't come into my life easily but you made every moment worth since your birth. 

I know I am not perfect mother and I don't strive to be one.I am a mother who is more humane and normal. I don't want to show you that life is perfect or your Ma is perfect. Through my imperfections I want you to learn the real facts of life, of dealing with your demons and crisis. You have given me the most happiest moments of my life Biryani... Thank you for choosing me as your mother ❤️ 

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